free love

Valentines day may be over but love is everyday and this quote says a lot about what love is to me or a part of it. Love is of the heart and we are not storybooks, we are people and like all things in life, we change. So does love, it sometimes leaves just like it comes out of nowhere or grows. We have to accept all parts of it and ourselves. Love is not definitions or demands or a script to be followed. It's not math...it just is. Let it be what it is in the time it is given.

recycled

There is one area of my life and my rebirth as an individual I either just attract or as is often the case I feed into. Probably more the latter the more i learn about myself because i control the exchange and what is given and I know this but it is the single area I still have not overcome at times.

To put it simply without details or analysis: I must  be the best emotional substitute boyfriend in the world. I attract this situation in my life way too often and it is an endless cycle of me giving and being taken until I am dry. It is up to me to look to myself rather than my old ways of putting others first which is hard because I love helping others and having them KNOW I am genuine but I deserve genuine in return.

Time to take out the trash.

reality

The only thing I have learned to count on is me.
After more heartache than I can stand but even I let myself down all too often.